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[thedarlingone]

I think I just dreamed about... it was all very symbolic, but there was definitely a chicken I had adopted from an animal shelter in about 2008, and it symbolized something about my fannish career or my emotional well-being or both, and there was a distressing bit where my bio-incubator threatened to wring the chicken's neck if I didn't come down and put to bed myself instead of her putting it to bed at the same time as her own four chickens and my sister's chicken (which was extremely on the nose and says some things not just about my bio-incubator's style of emotional abuse but about the ways I'm starting to be able to recognize it), but then I was both startled to realize how long I had had my chicken, cause it was having a birthday party (we have recently had the anniversaries of both my joining fandom and my refusing an order from my bio-incubator for the first time), and startled to realize that within the past year or so it had [morphed into / become healthy enough to make it evident that it was], not in fact a chicken, but a peacock. It had been very mangy and battered but I had taken such good care of it that its feathers were finally growing in all nice and shiny.

(Apparently in my head a healthy chicken-peacock-symbol-thing looks more like an owl fledged in peacock tailfeathers. Also the feather "eyes" are solid physical objects like little organic plastic medallions. XD)

Anyway. That's full of symbolism I can overanalyze later, but I did want to note it down. Because I am taking really good care of myself, and apparently my dreams are proud of me. ^_^