thedarlingone

iv port did become infected. pcp's office called this morning like "uhhh we got a notice you were released from hospital? do you want a followup visit" and i was like "hell yeah that'll save me a trip to urgent care" and now i have antibiotics

there's a Difficulty with my test strips prescription but i don't have enough brain to explain it

my blood sugar has been over 250 since breakfast despite me being very careful to follow all my insulin instructions to the letter. i am somewhat distressed and have not yet eaten lunch because getting a bad grade in blood sugar always triggers my anorexia, but a friend bought me a doordash gift card as congratulations for not dying so i have wendy's on the way. i am pleased that my diabetic diet not only allows but *instructs* me to eat 45g-60g of carbs per meal, not more but also not less, and therefore i can have a baconator and a ten-piece of chicken nuggets and still have room for dipping sauce.

(this is probably not helping my cholesterol. right now however i simply do not have the bandwidth to give a flying fuck about my cholesterol. i'm on two meds for it and either those will suffice or they won't. acquiring food i will eat takes precedence)

tomorrow i must depart the house yet again and try to see, optimally, an orthopedist and then a cardiologist. i am doubtful i can manage both but i will try. i cannot do the cardiologist first because he wants to put a metal sticker on my chest to track my tachycardia and i suspect the ortho will want an mri of my back, which is contraindicated if i have a metal heart monitor sticker on. (my cgm thankfully is reported to be mri safe.)

i also can't take painkillers right now, or i feel it would be unwise, because the hospital had me on blood thinners as is standard procedure when you're immobile in a bed so you don't get the leg blood clots and catch a stroke, and i'm massively bruised up and want my blood to stop being thin as soon as possible. so i am feeling rather like somebody put me through a spin cycle with dryer balls

i haven't seen the orthopedic surgeon yet. i was on the bus to the appointment when i had a massive attack of dizziness, nausea, tachycardia, and shortness of breath (i did manage not to actually throw up on the bus, thankfully). helpfully, the appointment was at a hospital complex, so i simply went to the emergency room instead and asked them to check if i was having a heart attack.

i was not having a heart attack. ( text )

anyway. not dead. somewhat bored. less covered in tubes than previously. hoping i get out of the hospital in time for my rescheduled orthopedist appointment monday, but knowing how long anything in a hospital takes, i suspect i may need to reschedule again.

i have seen my pcp. i have referrals to a bunch of specialists (endocrinologist, pulmonologist, podiatrist, ophthalmologist, gynecologist, cardiologist), i have had my blood drawn to see how my meds need adjusted (my a1c and cholesterol are probably horrendous since i've been off those meds for most of a year), i have had an ekg for tachycardia because my pulse rate was stuck around 130 (it came back with no obvious abnormalities other than being stupid fast, hence the cardiologist referral), and most importantly i have had my back x-rayed to see if i have any slipped discs or anything similar causing my back pain.

preliminary results on the x-rays say everything looks normal. (i am unsurprised, previous imaging hasn't found anything either.) pcp will decide on wednesday at my telemed followup whether to refer me to physical therapy or an orthopedic specialist. i am hoping for the specialist because i have had pt for my back twice already and none of the exercises or stretches seem to be helping (i did tell my pcp this so hopefully it works out.)

my corset pattern also arrives wednesday or thursday but if i get a referral to an orthopedist i'll probably hold off on any further corsetry expenses until i find out whether i get prescribed something like a medical back brace covered by insurance. (if it is my sacroiliac joints being the problem, one treatment is a special hip-and-back brace that my medicaid apparently covers at 2 per year.) probably still going to cut it out and do a fitting with a paper mockup though because i like to know my options.

now i am being flat on a heating pad for 3-4 business days until i recover from the being vertical for four hours straight. this is so fucking stupid.

One problem with sorting my music is I can't do it at the same time as anything else or I'll simply zone out and stop noticing the music enough to process any of it.

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I think that's about enough music listening for me for one day. There are so many more D songs to get through, but I'm burning out.

(You know what I haven't got a copy of is Danny in the Jar. I should remedy that at some point.)

Okay, where did I leave this off before? "Bluenose", apparently. (You see why I need to write these things down.)

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Okay, I went and cleared those out, plus some more duplicates I'm sure of (there are so many more duplicates I have to actually check by ear). That brings us down to 93 hours of music, of which I'm almost six hours in. It's nearly midnight here; I think I'll wrap it up and go to bed. Next on the list is two versions of Bridge Over Troubled Water, the Simon & Garfunkel version and a Johnny Cash cover.

okay, where did I leave off... right, Big Band Hits of the '30s, for which Sovay has helped me identify the correct artist but I do not have the energy right now to match instrumental tracks by ear. I can tackle that at some other point.

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I think I'll call it there at least for a bit. I'm having a very low energy day.

Okay, let's see if I can get slightly further into the letter A. (I should probably be tagging these posts or something but I'll worry about that later. Titling them's a start, anyway.)

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I'm going to cut it there because I have an appointment soon. I'm down to 105 hours left (I went through last night and removed a bunch of duplicated files where some albums had gotten double copied for some reason; there are a bunch more duplicates and files I need to compare to find out whether they're different, so the number will probably keep going down faster than I actually listen through everything).

Putting this under a cut because it will likely be Long:

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(And then VQ recommended I should check out Hozier and Orville Peck as being similar to artists I enjoy, and Leia sent me a bunch of Orville Peck links and I got distracted listening to those, so I'll cut this post here and probably continue later. So far my opinion there is Orville Peck has a very articulate voice that's easy to understand without having to read the lyrics along, which is an important starting point for me.)

More Jedi: Fallen Order, heading to Kashyyyk!