I need help

Aug. 7th, 2021 08:12 pm
thedarlingone: black cat in front of full moon in dark blue sky (blue cat moon)
Okay, so I'm not doing well. I'm not going to be homeless this month, but that's the best I can say. I have less than $25 in the bank, no credit cards, and I desperately need money for food (estimated about $250), gas ($40), meds ($80), and last month's phone bill ($80), so that I can go back to work in a week and get a paycheck in early September. My Paypal is detectivekraken@gmail.com and my Ko-fi (functionally a third-party PayPal donate button) is JusticeTurtle. If you can donate anything at all or share this around anywhere, it would be greatly appreciated.

I'll be honest, I'm terrified. I haven't been eating barely at all to save money, and I need to be functional at work in order to eventually get a paycheck.
thedarlingone: Illya Kuryakin smiling, captioned "BOOM" in capital letters (illya boom)
Denial (1174 words) by thedarlingone
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Star Wars Legends: X-Wing Series - Aaron Allston & Michael Stackpole, Star Wars Original Trilogy
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Derek "Hobbie" Klivian & Leia Organa
Characters: Derek "Hobbie" Klivian, Leia Organa
Additional Tags: Pre-Battle of Hoth (Star Wars), Feelings Realization, Hobbie is attracted to Wes and doesn't know it
Summary:

On Hoth, Leia and Hobbie get together for caf and bitching.



So! [personal profile] thisbluespirit made a challenge comm called [community profile] 100ships, in which one tries to write 100 different character combinations: friendships, relationships, familial, what have you. So [personal profile] the_dour_one and I were talking about how we could possibly get to 100, and it occurred to us that Hobbie and Leia on Hoth talking smack about the people they definitely don't have crushes on could be entertaining...
thedarlingone: white text on green background reads "this episode was badly written" (galaxyquest badly written)
#01 – Adamant #02 – Snow #03 – Lion #04 – Spark #05 – Amber
#06 – Lust #07 – Bronze #08 – Mint #09 – Arctic #10 – Black
#11 – Moonlight #12 – Sunlight #13 – Blue #14 – Navy #15 – Tea
#16 – Neon #17 – Twilight #18 – Blush #19 – Wine #20 – Nude
#21 – Rhythm #22 – Brown #23 – Linen #24 – Ember #25 – Thistle
#26 – Cherry #27 – Orange #28 – Vanilla #29 – Bone #30 – Harlequin
#31 – Cadet #32 – Chocolate #33 – Peach #34 – Lead #35 – Cream
#36 – Sand #37 – White #38 – Crimson #39 – Pink #40 – Ocean
#41 – Dove #42 – Platinum #43 – Yellow #44 – Earth #45 – Midnight
#46 – Pearl #47 – Frostbite #48 – Pumpkin #49 – Electric #50 – Purple
#51 – Coral #52 – Salt #53 – Crow #54 – Rainbow #55 – Cloud
#56 – Flame #57 – Red #58 – Ash #59 – Rose #60 – Slate
#61 – Green #62 – Ruby #63 – Olive #64 – Lipstick #65 – Spice
#66 – Grey #67 – Denim #68 – Rust #69 – Flirt #70 – Sunset
#71 – Sable #72 – Desert #73 – Jade #74 – Sage #75 – Buff
#76 – Jet #77 – Plum #78 – Leather #79 – Liberty #80 – Metal
#81 – Sepia #82 – Lavender #83 – Scarlet #84 – Crystal #85 – Chestnut
#86 – Shadow #87 – Lemon #88 – Mystic #89 – Silver #90 – Coffee
#91 – Seafoam #92 – Lime #93 – Punch #94 – Pickle #95 – Champagne
#96 – Copper #97 – Bittersweet #98 – Honey #99 – Candy #100 – Gold
thedarlingone: Richard Dean Anderson captioned "pilot Rick blesses ur journey" (pilot rick)
I CAN HAZ COVID VACCINE APPOINTMENT

it is tomorrow at noon! i am excite

also i have a long weekend which is lucky in case it lays me out
thedarlingone: Peter Tork smiling (peter tork shiny)
Meme from [personal profile] thisbluespirit: List the first lines of your last 20 stories (if you have less than 20, just list them all!). See if there are any patterns. Choose your favourite opening line.

Hm. Older to newer, or newer to older? Newer to older, I guess. These are all X-Wing fics, because that's what I write now.

Read more... )

Patterns... I tend to start with either something short and snappy or something that sets the whole scene in a sentence. As far as favorites, I think "There were people in his bed" is still my own favorite.
thedarlingone: Kanga and Roo captioned "u will roo the day u messed with me" (roo the day)
Still alive. Have been having a lot of fun with budgeting and math, including figuring out how to calculate payroll taxes properly so I can predict my take-home pay better.

That's actual fun, not sarcastic fun... )
thedarlingone: Kanga and Roo captioned "u will roo the day u messed with me" (roo the day)
What I've been doing lately is mostly reading through Star Wars Legends in publication order. I've gotten to 1998, and I only have a couple more trilogies to go before the Yuuzhan Vong War / New Jedi Order (which is a spectacular 19 books long), so here are some quick notes of what I think so far.

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thedarlingone: Jimmy Stewart in Philadelphia Story, captioned "this is the voice of doom calling" (voice of doom)
Okay. So. Fuck. I haven't been working, due to pandemic crazybrain. I'm going back to work on Friday, but the situation is, I haven't paid June's rent and I am out of money. I've applied for rent assistance but god knows how long that'll take. I desperately need to raise $482 by June 26, or I will be evicted by "immediate forcible detainer".

My PayPal is ethanrabbits@gmail.com, or my Ko-fi is justiceturtle (basically a third-party PayPal donate button). Please, if you can chip in at all or signal boost, please help.

Thank you.
thedarlingone: Kanga and Roo captioned "u will roo the day u messed with me" (roo the day)
1: are there any fics that you wanted to leave multiple kudos for, and were disappointed when you could only leave one? -- Oh yes, lots. Pretty much most fics I reread, and most multi-chapter fics.

2: coffeeshop AU or soulmate AU? -- Um. I'm not really that into either one? I've written a coffeeshop AU and I don't think I've written a soulmate AU, though.

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thedarlingone: Kanga and Roo captioned "u will roo the day u messed with me" (roo the day)
HEY THERE Y’ALL. So I go through phases where I read nothing but Tumblr and then phases where I devour new books like a ravening wolf. I’m getting to a point where I want to Read Things, but of course the library is not open (and my local library is shite anyway, that’s a separate rant). So I’m basically stuck with Project Gutenberg, and I don’t know where the fuck to start. I don’t even know what genre I want to try.

So! Does anybody have any recommendations? What are your favorite out-of-copyright books? Are there Great Classics that are surprisingly readable? Assume I haven’t read much that’s aimed at adults, but I’m game to try anything. I’m generally fonder of adventure than of romance, but the thing about books old enough to be on Project Gutenberg is that they really don’t fall into the same categories as the mid-century kidlit I grew up reading.
thedarlingone: Jimmy Stewart in Philadelphia Story, captioned "this is the voice of doom calling" (voice of doom)
So most of my reading list right now is people talking about books they have read recently, which is all well and good. But it happens that I have finally read Ursula Vernon's horror novel, "The Twisted Ones", and I have run into the problem that prevents me from doing bookblogging, which is that I don't know what I think of it. And then I read "The White People", the 1904 horror story it's inspired by, and I went "Huh. ... I don't get it." And then I read "The Twisted Ones" again just in case, and I still was not scared by it, even though a great many people on Twitter apparently found it extremely scary and were saying one should not read it alone or after dark, which is why it took me so long.

So now I'm sort of having mild angst about whether I am just not horrorable due to the autism or something. I mean, I remember "The Pit and the Pendulum" spooking me pretty well, but I was like fifteen and very sensitive. (Jesus, that's more than half my life ago.)

I mean, I don't know why this is bugging me. It's not like I *want* to be scared out of my skin. I usually avoid horror-genre stuff for that reason. I used to have terrible crippling nightmares where I couldn't get out of bed afterward till someone else turned the light on for me, and there is no one to turn the lights on now. But I feel like I'm not getting what I'm supposed to be getting out of it, like doing an assigned reading in English class where you just don't have the key to understand what's going on.
thedarlingone: Jimmy Stewart in Philadelphia Story, captioned "this is the voice of doom calling" (voice of doom)
Not dead, just for the record. Not quarantined or suspended from work either, though.
thedarlingone: Enterprise captioned "the end of all our exploring" (the end of all our exploring)
It is 1:30am. I have been trying to fall asleep for three hours to no avail. I am very irritated. I desperately need to get to work in the morning so I can have a hope in Hades of making the rent. If I could just sit up and cross stitch till I fell asleep or something, I'd be less annoyed, but if I do that I'll definitely be too sleepy to work. Which I might be anyway. Blargl.
thedarlingone: Jimmy Stewart in Philadelphia Story, captioned "this is the voice of doom calling" (voice of doom)
So it has been yeeeeeears and years, but over at [community profile] kevinandursulatranscripts I have just posted the transcript for episode 9 of Kevin and Ursula Eat Cheap. If anyone is interested in Ursula Vernon's various whatnots, this is her unscripted podcast that is now closing in on episode 300, so I'm... somewhat behind. XD But hopefully there will be some entertainment value in having these things in text format, at least as many of them as I get through.
thedarlingone: Enterprise captioned "the end of all our exploring" (the end of all our exploring)
Memed from [personal profile] mara and others. Cut for probable rambling and longth.

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thedarlingone: Richard Dean Anderson captioned "pilot Rick blesses ur journey" (pilot rick)
So. As previously mentioned on this blog, I missed an entire two-week paycheck due to... something. Best guess is a combination of a weird virus and a lot of exhaustion. I was passing out sleeping for 14+ hours a day for the whole two weeks, couldn't stay awake for more than a couple hours no matter what.

I'm feeling better enough to get back to work now, and thanks to FMLA I have a job to go back to, but obviously I'm coming up extremely short on my bills, meds, copays, etc, and I'm pretty close to completely out of food. I need to raise about $300 to make it to my next paycheck. If anybody can help out, I'd really appreciate it.

My Paypal is ethanrabbits@gmail.com or you can donate through my Ko-fi (basically a third-party Paypal donate button) here. Signal boosting is also super helpful.

Thank you all!
thedarlingone: text reads "and after last week's exciting cliffhanger, let's see if they're any further on with mending that umbrella stand" (umbrella stand)
*flops* Here we fucking go again, I guess.

Something's majorly wrong with me. I've been sleeping fourteen to twenty hours a day. I've missed work for a week, and I'm not feeling any better. It's not depression; my mind is relatively clear, in fact I'm going a little stir-crazy from being unable to do anything. My CPAP machine is working fine. It might be a virus, or a nervous breakdown, or a sudden onset of chronic fatigue syndrome (god, it better not be, I'll die).

Right now, I'm in that unenviable position where I can choose between paying the rent or affording food and medication. So I'm asking for help. A-fucking-gain. :P

I figure I need at least $300 to make it through the next month. That's assuming I only miss one full paycheck. If I miss more... well, we'll just have to fucking see, won't we. ;P

My Paypal is ethanrabbits@gmail.com , my Ko-fi (basically a third-party Paypal donate button, for the unfamiliar) is http://ko-fi.com/justiceturtle , and if you want to contribute more regularly to my Patreon that's http://patreon.com/justiceturtle .

Now I'm gonna go pass the fuck out again. Took me long enough to have the energy to even make this post. If you do anything religious, prayers / candles / good energy are also much appreciated. Signal boosting too. I just want this bloody thing to be over with and get back to my damn job already.
thedarlingone: MacGyver captioned "im in ur library shushin ur books" (shushin ur books)
I'll make this short. I missed half my shifts in Oct/Nov and about 20% of December due to health shit. Most of it is now hopefully sorted out, but I've paid as much in copays as I do on rent in a month, and I still have more copays coming due. Plus, I'm going to be off work for a week, unpaid, for one last medical procedure and recovery time.

Please, I know it's the most expensive time of the year, but if anyone can chip in at all or signal boost, my Paypal is ethanrabbits@gmail.com and my Ko-fi is ko-fi.com/JusticeTurtle . I would be eternally grateful.

Many thanks and hugs to people who have already helped massively; it's thanks to them that I will be able to pay the rent after already buying petrol and food, instead of being fucking homeless *again*. :D But things are still going to be extremely tight through January. Seriously, anything at all would help, even good wishes. Thank you.
thedarlingone: Daniel Jackson by a wall with inscriptions, captioned "alien graffiti" (alien graffiti)
The Pirate's Prisoner (15431 words) by camshaft22, thedarlingone
Chapters: 3/3
Fandom: Star Wars Legends: X-Wing Series - Aaron Allston & Michael Stackpole
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Wes Janson/Derek "Hobbie" Klivian, Tycho Celchu/Derek "Hobbie" Klivian, Wedge Antilles/Tycho Celchu/Wes Janson/Derek "Hobbie" Klivian
Characters: Wes Janson, Derek "Hobbie" Klivian, Wedge Antilles, Tycho Celchu
Additional Tags: READ THE FUCKING WARNINGS, detachable prosthetic vagina, Rule 63, Alternate Universe - Gender Changes, Alternate Universe - Always a Different Sex, Gender or Sex Swap, Female Derek "Hobbie" Klivian, Female Tycho Celchu, Canon Disabled Character, Prosthesis, Consensual Kink, Consensual Non-Consent, Sexual Slavery, Master/Slave, Sexual Roleplay, Costume Kink, Bondage, BDSM, Overstimulation, Dehumanization, Humiliation, Dirty Talk, Slapping, Safeword Use, Collars, Begging, Orgasm Delay/Denial, Multiple Orgasms, Forced Orgasm, Knifeplay, Undressing, Oral Sex, Rough Oral Sex, Rough Sex, Double Penetration in Two Holes, Triple Penetration, Cunnilingus, Blow Jobs, Come Shot, Come Eating, Come Swallowing, Facials, Gags, Ball Gag, Ring gag, Face-Fucking, Hair-pulling, Breasts, Spitroasting, Large Breasts, Body Worship, Breast Worship, Nipple Play, Vaginal Fingering, Vaginal Sex, Vaginal Fisting, Penis In Vagina Sex, Anal Sex, Fingerfucking, Dildos, tentacle dildo, Sex Toys, Hand Jobs, Handcuffs, Aftercare, Plot What Plot/Porn Without Plot, Porn with Feelings, OT4, Foursome - F/F/M/M
Summary:

Wes and Hobbie roleplay an evil pirate breaking his prisoner into a willing sex slave. Then Wes shares his new conquest with his two most loyal lieutenants.



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All finished! *flops down* Dear lord, we're badass. 15k+ words in two days, and it only required very minimal beta tweaking. (And several dozen freeform tags just for all the kinks we covered. XD)
thedarlingone: text reads "fabricati diem pvnc" (fabricati diem)
The Pirate's Prisoner (10703 words) by camshaft22, thedarlingone
Chapters: 2/3
Fandom: Star Wars Legends: X-Wing Series - Aaron Allston & Michael Stackpole
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Wes Janson/Derek "Hobbie" Klivian, Tycho Celchu/Derek "Hobbie" Klivian, Wedge Antilles/Tycho Celchu/Wes Janson/Derek "Hobbie" Klivian
Characters: Wes Janson, Derek "Hobbie" Klivian, Wedge Antilles, Tycho Celchu
Additional Tags: READ THE FUCKING WARNINGS, detachable prosthetic vagina, Rule 63, Alternate Universe - Gender Changes, Alternate Universe - Always a Different Sex, Gender or Sex Swap, Female Derek "Hobbie" Klivian, Female Tycho Celchu, Canon Disabled Character, Prosthesis, Consensual Kink, Consensual Non-Consent, Sexual Slavery, Master/Slave, Sexual Roleplay, Costume Kink, Bondage, BDSM, Overstimulation, Dehumanization, Humiliation, Dirty Talk, Slapping, Safeword Use, Collars, Begging, Orgasm Delay/Denial, Multiple Orgasms, Forced Orgasm, Knifeplay, Undressing, Oral Sex, Rough Oral Sex, Rough Sex, Double Penetration in Two Holes, Triple Penetration, Cunnilingus, Blow Jobs, Come Shot, Come Eating, Come Swallowing, Facials, Gags, Ball Gag, Ring gag, Face-Fucking, Hair-pulling, Breasts, Spitroasting, Large Breasts, Body Worship, Breast Worship, Nipple Play, Vaginal Fingering, Vaginal Sex, Vaginal Fisting, Penis In Vagina Sex, Anal Sex, Fingerfucking, Dildos, tentacle dildo, Sex Toys, Hand Jobs, Handcuffs, Aftercare, Plot What Plot/Porn Without Plot, Porn with Feelings, OT4, Foursome - F/F/M/M
Summary:

Wes and Hobbie roleplay an evil pirate breaking his prisoner into a willing sex slave. Then Wes shares his new conquest with his two most loyal lieutenants.



***

Chapter 2 is up! In which Wedge and Tyche come to visit (Tyche being the feminine name form of "Tycho"), and there is Tyche/Hobbie lesbian fisting. I'm ridiculously proud of this story, okay? :D

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